I have found myself being very nostalgic recently. It has been a year since I received a diagnosis of DCIS. Those were hard days. I had decisions to make while feeling overwhelmed. This next week marks one year since I crashed after getting my first opinion. While I am not a fan of crashing (I have done it more times than I like to admit), I am so glad that I got a second opinion. I felt so much better about my decision after the calm atmosphere at CTCA in Zion, IL. I greatly appreciate the expert care I received there.
God allowed what I would consider a crooked and rocky path last year to show me how He can make my paths straight. I had to pray my way through repetitious thoughts of “I don’t want to deal with this”. By God’s grace, He kept showing His love time and again as He led me through the situation. I am so glad this part of my story is past. While I will always have some of the difficult memories and I bear the scar of surgery, I do not want to feel sorry for any of it. God gave so much grace. I continue to pray that God’s hand is visible in my life. Whatever path God leads me to walk in the future.
Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for making my paths straight through tough times. Thank You that I can lean on You. Please help me to continue to submit to Your plans. I want others to see Your hand in my life.
I have talked the last couple weeks about trusting in Jesus Christ to save us from our sins. Some think that to have a relationship with God, there is a difficult formula to manage. No, it is very simple. Romans 10:9-10 tell us that it is as simple as confession (saying, “I’m sorry”) and belief that God has done what He says. Jesus did the hard work when He died on the cross. He took the penalty on Himself.
Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for providing such a simple way to have a relationship with You. You are worthy of all worship, but You made a way for us to come to You. I praise Your name.
This last week I have been fighting a different battle. The company that manages my employer’s disability policy does not have the information they want to process my claim. I have been confused and felt hassled trying to be the go-between to get this situation resolved. I have needed the reminder to pray and trust the Lord completely. God has this situation in hand, just as He had my surgery and recovery taken care of.
Life is full of various challenges. God has the ability to take care of us through anything He allows in our lives. I need to rely completely and totally on God to be able to make it through those situations.
Dear Heavenly Father, Thank You for providing secure footing when I rely completely on You. Please help me when I struggle to trust You completely. I know You are trustworthy.
I was at CTCA for my one month post-surgery follow up this week. God has sent many blessings along the way, despite the challenges of surgery. At this point, I have been “released” and do not need any more treatment.
I still can’t say specifically why God chose this journey for me, but I know God has a plan to bring honor to Himself. He will equip me to do His will. There is nothing better in life than living for God.
Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for all of the blessings and for giving me strength to endure the challenges. Please help me to live the purpose You have for me.
God’s grace is an amazing gift. 2 Corinthians 9:8 tells us that God’s grace gives us all sufficiency…in all things…at all times. All is a big concept in a little word. All or nothing is rarely true – it IS true when talking about God. Only God can be that consistent.
When times are tough it can feel like we don’t have enough. Worry and fear set in and we don’t respond well or do well in trials. I want to live this verse especially in the next week as I have pre-op appointments and surgery. There will be plenty of challenges, but my God is bigger than the challenges and my fervent prayer is that God’s name will be glorified through my life.
Dear Heavenly Father, please show Yourself strong in the upcoming week. I want to see and show others that Your grace will give all sufficiency in all things at all times. I know You will as I give my circumstances to You.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 (ESV)
My two-week break from medical appointments is coming to an end. It has been nice to have some time away from appointments, but now it is time to move forward again. Making decisions can feel overwhelming, but I have a Heavenly Father Who wants the best for me. His best. I need to daily place my trust in His care for me. When I acknowledge my own weakness, God will give me His strength. There is no better way to go through life than to have God’s strength readily available.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Please help me to go to CTCA in faith, trusting You and Your work in my life. Thank you for what You have been doing and what You will do in and through me.